29 March, 2010

Asha Holi 2010 and Lessons on Play, Combat, and Human Nature

In a phrase, "It's all fun and games until someone gets hurt."

This past Saturday, March 27, I went to the Asha Holi celebration, held at a large, out-of-the-way field on Stanford's campus. The event website boasted a 2009 attendance of over 4,000. From the number of cars in the parking area, and the the density of people in the huge field, I could definitely believe it.

Having only ever been to a small Holi celebration, and that only as it was winding down, I expected to see a lot of people having a good ol' time, and in large part, that is indeed what I saw. However, I also noticed some patterns I found concerning. There were signs that some people were past the point of enjoyment, and that other people weren't taking those signals seriously. I saw joy, mirth, and frolic, but also witnessed fear, anger, and vengefulness.

By the time I left, there were sufficiently many people in such a fervor as to cause me to question the crowd-safety of the event. As history has shown time and time and time again, it only takes a small amount of confusion before a large crowd ends up trampling people.

What follows are my observations on how the situation developed, and some derivative realizations about human nature, especially as pertains to large crowds.


A fantasy (as discussed by Douglas Hofstadter in Gödel, Escher, Bach) is, in a sense, a temporary suppression of reality. It's the result of asking "What if…" — a doorway that you can walk through to enter a social construct with different rules and different norms. You don't become someone else, but your perception of what is acceptable changes, so you feel comfortable doing things you otherwise might not. Most importantly, though, a fantasy is a pretense that you can, in theory, drop at any time.


In the case of the Asha Holi celebration, the fantasy begins when you walk onto the field. It's usually not acceptable to throw pigment at people, and to dump water on people, but here it's ok. Even so, a fantasy has rules. When participants abide by those rules, people have fun.

As mentioned earlier, one aspect that adds to the feeling of comfort and safety in a fantasy is the thought that one can get out at any time. That if things start going too far, you can just snap out of it and all will be well again. That here, fear doesn't imply danger.


This was the first image that made me pause and think about what was actually going on in the playfield. While I was out there, watching and shooting, it looked as if these folks were having as good a time as everybody else; likely, they were. Later on, as I was going through photos at home, I was struck by the look of utter fear on the face of the man to the left.

So there was fear. Fear isn't necessarily bad in and of itself — like many people, I love rollercoasters, and fear is often a large part of the enjoyment. However, when emotions like fear are present, a participant who observes the rules of the fantasy being bent or broken may experience anger and other more intense emotions. In a sense, a known-safe situation now has the potential for danger, which leads the participants to forget that they're in a fantasy; the fantasy starts to become a reality, and it becomes harder to just "snap out of it."

The shift from enjoyable fear to terror often begins after a single event noticeably violates the rules of the fantasy. If a rollercoaster starts creaking a bit too much, or a rider's harness starts to come loose, the sentiment can change from "whee!" to "oh goodness, get me off of this thing now" in an instant.

In the iconic Stanford Prison Experiment of 1971, this moment of betrayal happened on the second day of the experiment, when the prisoners staged a rebellion, during which they taunted the guards. The guards responded with force; after quelling the rebellion, they "generally began to harass and intimidate the prisoners."


I saw and captured an analogous moment of betrayal at Holi. I noticed two boys — "green" and "orange" — just after orange had run past and thrown pigment in green's face. Having chatted earlier with two of the EMTs on site, essentially the only thing they were treating was people with pigment in their eyes, so presumably this sneak attack made green physically uncomfortable.


Immediately, green began gesticulating in a "why did you do that?!" manner — in his mind, orange had likely violated one of the tenets of the "Playing Holi" fantasy. Green stomped after orange in what was a very clear display of anger, and was likely also an attempt to intimidate orange.


As the two confronted each other, orange dismissively flicked pigment at green, in a sense ignoring the claims of foul play. Put another way, green had tried to get orange to "snap out of" the Playing Holi fantasy to realize that he had brought danger into a fantasy that should have been safe. Orange didn't comply, instead responding with what could be considered an act of disrespect — "your concerns aren't valid".

Considered within the Holi fantasy, the flick of pigment might have been appropriate, but taken outside of that fantasy, it could easily be thought of as a taunt. I have seen and heard of similar exchanges quickly escalating to violence. I don't believe that happened here, although the two moved out of sight before I could see how things played out.


After witnessing the confrontation, I moved to the area where volunteers were distributing pigment. The volunteers worked feverishly to keep the pigment coming. Despite the crowd's fervor, they appeared to be patient. Even so, in light of what I had seen moments before between the two boys, it seemed like a situation that would only require some small catalyst to turn sour.

One potential problem I noticed was that some people didn't seem to follow the rules of a line. In one case, a young woman received pigment, slapped it on the faces of two young men behind her, and then held her hands out for more. In the photo above, a man grabbed a bucket of orange pigment and threw it in the air.

Again, as far as I could tell while watching, none of this led to any real confrontation. Had such a confrontation occurred, a panic would likely have ensued, especially given that everyone was pressed against everyone else. A volunteer I spoke with noted that the crowd was gradually pushing the tables inward. The pressing would have made it hard to flee in the event that something happened, and when people feel trapped, they often panic.


All in all, this seemed like a fun event where whatever scuffles that occurred were few and minor, and the majority of people had a great time. That said, I still can't help but feel that it treaded perilously close to the line where fun can turn to danger.

The short article "Crowd Panic…" mentions a number of situational properties that can lead to dangerous crowd panics. Foremost among them are "[lack of] sufficient exits and the absence of supervision." Needless to say, there was very little supervision. I noticed a couple security guards, but they were likely far too few to keep their eyes on everybody — the center of the area was essentially unpoliced.

As for exit routes, consider the image above. If you follow the right sign-pole to the ground, you'll note that it's attached to a fence. The majority of the area was surrounded either by fences or by trees and brush, as visible in the distance. What few openings were present were generally impeded — the pigment distribution area, the tables where the EMTs were stationed, and the portable restrooms all blocked would-be emergency exits.


So finally, a plea: stay safe; keep human nature in mind when planning large events. To conclude, here are a few lines from Robert Burns' poem To a Mouse:
The best laid schemes of mice and men
Go often askew,
And leave us nothing but grief and pain,
For promised joy!

06 March, 2010

15 Minutes of Pool

Near the end of a very busy Friday, I encountered a serendipitous opportunity to shoot some pool, in a sense. Inspired by some shots from my friend Brandon this past week, I tried to focus on capturing the motion of the game while still keeping the faces sharp. In the 15 minutes that followed, I ended up shooting the two best pool photos I've ever taken.

The shot above is at least 75% luck. I also learned empirically that DSLR shutter lag — the delay between when you fully press the shutter release and when the camera starts recording the image — is perceptible, if barely. On a few occasions, I predicted the final stroke, hit the shutter release, and thought "man! too early!" One of those times, I recall the viewfinder blacking out as the cue was about to hit the cue ball, and the ball was halfway across the table in the actual capture.


The leading photo was my second pool shot of the night, and this was my second-to-last. This guy was using more finesse than the one shooting the break, so he stayed fairly still after hitting the ball, which kept him nice and sharp. I didn't (consciously) notice his opponent in the background, but I'm glad he's there. Seeing him eying the corner pocket, with his hands clasped on his pool cue, adds a lot of depth to the image — this is a competition, not just some guy working on his corner shot.

Finally, I'm still puzzling out what the future of this blog might look like. Even so, I'm still shooting a lot and have lately been posting photos to both Twitter (@doppler_fto) and Facebook. That said, the two sites have different strengths and weaknesses, so the content on the two might diverge a bit over time; I don't really know yet.

23 February, 2010

Readers Who Care: Are you out there?

These thoughts have been swimming around in my head for a while, now, but given that I've been spending time on other things, and am now considering how much time I want to continue to spend on the blog, it seemed high time for some soul-searching.

On the one hand, I really enjoy it. Writing a blog gives me a chance to reflect on things I've shot and on moments I've captured. I've realized a number of things about the world by virtue of those reflections that I might have missed otherwise, and that's something I value.

On the other hand, it takes a ton of time. Hours to go through the photos just to see what I shot, more hours to pick out a couple photos to hopefully serve as milestones for a coherent story, and then hours beyond that to weave the photos together with words. And much like any other storyteller, I like it when people listen. I like it when people appreciate the time and effort I put in.

Over the past couple months, the extent of that appreciation has been called into question. When I asked people for their favorites a year ago, for It's Wet Outside, people seemed to have no problem voicing their opinions. Yet when I specifically and directly asked for feedback about the blog, the response was paltry in comparison. Most recently, when I suggested that I might enjoy a pat on the back after spending a full three days making A Christmas Poem, the only response was from my close friends.

This isn't to say that I don't appreciate those responses; I most certainly do. But if my goal were simply to connect with a small group of my close friends, I wouldn't be writing a blog.

So the point is this: I have more things that I'd love to work on than I have actual time to spend. I'm currently trying to figure out where this blog fits into that picture, and how much of that time I should devote to it. The response to this post will directly affect how much effort I put into the blog in the future. Feel free to leave comments, send email (feedback10@doppler-effect.net), or get in touch with me any other way you feel like.

And just to set expectations, I shoot enough where I could probably do a post every week or two. On the other end of things, I have no problem doing four posts a year and focusing on other things I've been neglecting.

To borrow a bizarrely appropriate and somewhat ironic line from Sherlock Holmes, "I have trained myself to notice what I see."

16 February, 2010

"V" is for Vault

This past Sunday, the 14th, I and a bunch of other weird folks celebrated V-day the best way we know how — with some good 'ol pole vaultin'. West Coast Vaulters has a number of regulars, as well as some folks who jump just once, or maybe only a couple times. In addition to all the folks who jump, there are three coaches, who I'll introduce in due time.

Vault practice is always a good time, and this Sunday was no exception. The sun shone brightly for the first time in a while, and people seemed to be in good spirits and jumping well.

Pictured above is Cameron Kroll, a vaulter for the Cal Bears, as he absolutely dominates some height that I'm unsure of.


This is Scott Slover, vault coach at Cal as well as one of the three regular coaches for this group. Prior to becoming a full-time vault coach, he was a 5-time All-American at UCLA, where he jumped 5.67m (18'7.25"). Subsequently, as a professional vaulter, he jumped as high as 5.74m (18'10") and competed in the 2000 and 2004 Olympic Trials.


Scott's dad, Bob, is another of the coaches, and as one might suspect from the relation, Bob taught Scott to vault. Before that, Bob had a vault career of his own, during which he competed in the vault at the 1968 and 1972 Trials. Above, Bob explains part of the vault technique to a parent while coaching her daughter.

And to take a short diversion, I think this photo captures a vault culture that I hadn't really experienced before getting here. I personally started vaulting around 12 years ago in middle school in Texas. Getting the early start was nice, but we in middle school didn't have much in the way of coaching beyond "how to get off the ground without getting hurt."

In high school, there was no vault coach the indoor season of my freshman year; the two older vaulters and I basically watched and coached each other. Fortuitously, Bob Disse (a parent and a vaulter when he himself was in high school) stepped up to the plate for the outdoor season, and ended up staying on as a volunteer assistant coach during the three more years I was there. By any measure, he volunteered well more than his due in time, dedication, and on more than one occasion, newly-purchased and/or -hand-crafted equipment.

That said, Coach Disse had the onerous task of creating a vault program from some old equipment that was hanging around, and only a single young vaulter (me). It's a striking contrast to see an environment where there is infrastructure already in place, and where young vaulters are getting world-class coaching simply by virtue of being on the track team.


In addition to the younger folks, there are also some older folks who jump with us. The man in the foreground, whose name I've unfortunately forgotten, jumps at Master's meets at age 57. Seated in the back is Chris Smith, a local vault coach and also a Master's competitor at the spry, young age of 53. One of Chris's pastimes is challenging the youngins to match his feats on the pull-up bar.


Coach number three, Jason Hinkin, snatches a $1 bill off the mat after winning a bet. Also a former pro vaulter, Jason seems to know everyone in the vaulting world. He asserts that vaulters were meant to toss footballs to each other while not vaulting, noting as evidence that he's tossed footballs with at least a few folks in the 6 meter club.

When not actively coaching, Jason basically tries to get everyone to laugh. On Sunday, he also introduced us all to his new dog and the oft-proclaimed love of his life, Smashy Von ChickenSnacks.


This is Mélissa, a vaulter visiting from France while checking out schools. Despite losing a bet for Jason's $1 bill in what must have been a crushing defeat, she brought the pain on her final jump, above, and definitively got on a pole she had been struggling with.

I invite you to check out the USATF's compendium of US Olympic Trials stats, running from 1908 through 2004. And to conclude, here's a quotation from Matt Chisam, a pro decathlete whom I vaulted with over a few summers:
"sport is about crafting yourself one trial, one error, one triumph at a time."